Saturday, August 17, 2013
Em, being overwhelmed with packing everything she owns and trying to get ready for a new adventure at college, just snapped. She burst into tears and cried "Can't anything stay the same?!"
I'm with ya sister.
So, while she's crying, I've got to help her. So, I burst into tears along with her. While's she lamenting a new school, new dorm, new friends, new everythings....I'm thinking about everyone leaving. And while Em has no clue as to how fun this next chapter will be, mine will be....uh....less exciting. I'm not saying I'm one-upping her boo-hoos--I'm just explaining mine. (It's my blog, I can do that.)
I'm accepting that Colin didn't come home this summer. I'm accepting that Em will go to a fabulous school on the lakefront and will have a fabulous time away at school. I'm accepting that I'm no longer a "mom" to kids. I'm accepting that I work in a job that I would rather not be at. I'm also accepting that there is no marching band for us and that fall is coming and I'm gonna miss Colorguard breakfast at my house. I'm accepting a lot of things like a trooper.
I'm struggling with the fact that the summer flowers are fading and so is my Gracie. Just like Em's phone, there is just that one thing that is putting me over the edge.
She's fine and doing well....but you see it. You just see it. If anything makes me cry these days, it's the damn cat.